Yes, I have finally decided to take the plunge, to venture into mysterious territories, to understand the opposite sex... By far, the most complex thing in this world (atleast for me)!

My equation with our fairer counterparts (though in terms of fairness, even I could give most of them a run for their money :-)), has been very interesting, ranging between the extremes of sheer joy to bitter annoyance.

As far as my memory goes, my first crush goes back to school-days, 6th standard to be precise, during those good-old Jammu days! The gorgeous'Shweta' (name not changed) used to sit with me in the class. I can describe her as my crush
only now, since at that time I was completely unawares of this amazing feeling that engulfed me all over. We were good friends, but deep within me I knew there was something more to this than just simple friendship (atleast from my side).
Whenever I wanted any help such as completing my homework, preparing for exams or even asking for a new pencil. It was always 'she', whom I would care to ask! She was intelligent, nice and very cooperative. And I was slowly but surely attracted towards her. I will always regret the fact that I could never understand her feelings for me and she never elaborated on them too. I guess, we were still too young to comprehend these hormonal imbalances.

As I grew older, moving to higher classes from Jammu to Dehradun - my mapping with girls also witnessed a gradual change. Well this had much to do with the structural changes and passionate desires of the teenage world. To add some masala here -
'Udita Goswami' (the bolly bomb-shell) used to be my classmate in 8th standard at DAV Public School, dehradun,albeit only for a month, though it may surprise you that I never liked her a lot, then!

And then I met 'Aditi' in 9th standard, and my world changed (for few months for sure). We used to travel together in the bus. She was in a different section & though we never interacted a lot, still I relished her company very much.
I was always searching for her face in the school assembly line and then during that 30 min. lunch break, before finally making sure that I manage to sit with her or could atleast see her in the bus, on the way back. I used to be a very
shy guy then and was incapable of expressing my feelings towards her. And this relation also grew hazier day by day, finally vanishing once I reached the board-examined 10th standard.

KV ONGC was my abode during 11th and 12th standards. And during these two years, my attraction towards the "misses" started to diverge. Because now I was fatally attracted towards innumerable girls rather than only one or two, like in earlier days. My friend circle also included guys with similar state of mind, and we started evaluating every single girl on her merit. Days and then months passed, and I was still intrigued by the mystery of the opposite sex.

And then something 'big' happened! I was in 12th standard and had just topped in the English unit test amidst a strong competition in my 45 student class. Naturally, I was in high spirits that day and then 'she' came!(Well, now I will
no longer be taking any names, what if my crashes track me here :-)) 'She' was the prettiest girl in our class. I was sitting with 2-3 friends, and then 'she' approached my desk...

SHE: Congrats Jitin!!
ME (almost dumbfounded by this shocker): Oh Thank you so much..
SHE: If you dont mind, can I take your answer-sheet for a minute, just to check my mistakes..
ME: Sure, no problems at all yaar!! ( I am sure that was my first reference of the 'yaar' word to the "misses")
SHE: Thanks a lot!

It was a 2 min. conversation, but it changed everything - from my identity now as a real 'stud' in my friends communuity to my attitude towards girls. I was more confident than ever now!!

School ended and so did my crushes.. Because then I moved to college.. and from then onwards I only had crashes :-(

Yes, during the last 5 years - I have met many gals.. But understanding the MISS has gone from being tough to almost impossible.. Have a look at the "misses" in my life and you will understand why:

Miss A thinks she is the most beautiful girl on this planet.. So game over here!

Miss B flaunts her assets like a would be Mallika.. Not my type!

Miss C is of the opinion that she has Einsteinic intelligence in her genes, whatever she says must be the truth.. I am always some distance away from this species!

Miss D thinks I am flirting with her, if I send her a simple friendship sms at 10pm in the night.. My goodness!

Miss E goes a step further.. She replies with an emphatic NO, my parents dont allow me to talk with guys, when I ask for her cell no.. So I never ask her anything!

Miss F thinks that I am getting a tad too close, if I wish her Birthday 4 times (orkut, email, sms and finally phone)within 4 hours.. My mistake this time!

Miss G can play the sms game really well, which goes on for hours, but talking on phone is a cardinal sin for her.. So I remove her cell no. too!

Miss H already has a boyfriend.. Wrong choice!

And the list goes on...

But, as with most of the things in life, here too there are a few exceptions...
There have been few "miss"es- which I have not missed to understand. And they have continued to be great friends all this while (but nothing more)!!

"Mademosille" (as I call her) during college days and my buddy across the border are few examples :-)
But - Thats it!

As I am still clueless about the rest 90% of them..

Love them or hate them, but you can't live without them!

They say: "People come into your life for a reason, season or a life-time"...

And how true is this quote.. For many gals have entered into my life for some 'reason'.. some others have played with my feelings for a 'season'. But I am still looking for the MISS UNDERSTANDING! (who understands me completely)..
And comes in for a 'life-time'!!

The search is ON...

Anyone interested.............................